GUESS WHO GOT INTO UGA!?

THAT'S RIGHT, ME!!

That is seriously the BEST news I've heard in a while. heh heh....

There are some periods of time, in which a great song is released to the public. Here's one of them....

Artist:	Goo Goo Dolls
Album:	Better Days
Title:	Better Days

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just the chance that maybe we’ll find better days

Cuz I don’t need boxes wrapped in strings
And designer love and empty things
Just the chance that maybe we’ll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight’s the night the world begins again

I need someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And that’s faith and trust and peace while we’re alive

And the one poor child who saved this world
And there’s ten million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight’s the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just the chance that maybe we’ll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight’s the night the world begins again
Cuz tonight’s the night the world begins again

It's interesting, to say the least....

Well, it's been a while since my last entry. Lot's has been going on. I've realized that I may never get what I want from life. It's really easy to say "live life to the fullest" or "as long as there is a will, there is a way", but in reality there are too many factors that contribute to what goes on in your life that the decision, ultimately, is out of your hands. I realize that one of the main factors is that I am too nice. I don't want to scratch my own back or anything like that, I don't mean to be boastful, but it's just that, I care too much how I make others feel. I care that others are feeling bad, I care even more if I'm the reason for their sorrow/anger/hatred/etc...

I admire David on this one. He's come to the conclusion that he shouldn't care what others think. He should do whatever he feels in order to live his life. Of course he and I both agree that he shouldn't be a jackass or anything, lol, 'cause that would be hard for David. Still, though, it's a nice way of living life. I don't know.

I just told someone I really care about that they could do whatever they wanted, even if it hurt me, and I wouldn't make a big deal out of it. I really care for this person and I really care that they care how I feel, but that person just agreed to it. Didn't think twice about it, or so it seemed to me. I would think that if s/he really cared how I felt, they would be like, "No, no, don't say stuff like that. You know I care if I'm hurting you or not," yada yada yada... I just don't know about anything anymore. I just wish that I could find someone or something that would keep me constantly happy. I hate having mood swings. I hate having to worry about how I'm treating others. I hate having to worry that I'm not being loved. In the end, does it really matter? Maybe I'll never find better days. I hope you all will....

Imaad Rashied

19th Century writer Charles Dudley Warner once said, "One discovers a friend by chance, and cannot but feel regret that 20 or 30 years of life may have been spent without the least knowledge of him." Heh, for me, four years...no regrets.

This is a sad entry. Most of you do not know, but, for the last four years, I have had a friend named Yasir. He came to our family by chance, his parents wanted him to do religious schooling and his parents knew my aunt who told them that my parents were really involved with the mosque over here and that he could come here to do it. So we met one faithful day in January, four years ago. It was kinda weird, because I knew he would be living with us for a while. I was never real keen on new people entering my life, I kinda didn't like change, but w/e, I had to deal with it.

Over the next four years, he and I spent his time here getting closer, and closer, and closer (no homosexuality intended <for all you pervs out there>). So close that this day, four years and some months later, when ge makes his final preparations to go back to California, I know that he is going for good. Yes, perhaps he will come back here to visit (he better!) and I will go there to visit (I know I will!), but he will not be here everyday with me. We won't be able to laugh at all the things we did or saw. We won't be playing practical jokes on different members of the family. We won't be sneaking out together to places that we aren't supposed to be. I won't be able to just call to someone when I have to run errands to ride in the car with me, because there will be no one.

I have three brothers (not including Yasir) and one sister, but how many of them am I close to? I'm the oldest. Except for Isam, all of them are out of my age range. Isam and I get along, but we always have our little feuds. Yasir and I NEVER had an altercation of ANY sort. He was the best friend that anyone could ask for. Over the years he has done SO much for me (I've done things too, btw. heh, I'm not THAT selfish); covering for me when I was out doing something that I could've gotten in trouble for, playing my wing man when it came to dealing with girls, and, of course, being my loyal confidant. The ONE person that I could ALWAYS count on.

Now this dilema: what do I do now? The house will seem SO boring without him being here. All my friends have their own lives to tend to, their own friends to be with and hang out with ALL the time. Sometimes I feel like an outsider. I didn't go to any of the regular middle schools and then end up at Duluth. I was in private school, and all those buddies are around, but they all live so far away. At Duluth, I was the new guy. I didn't know anyone ever since like 3rd or 4th grade. It seems that everyone has their "inner circles". Hanging out with me is like a once in a while thing. I don't know, I'm probably overreacting about this whole thing. It's probably not as bad as I make it seem. Lol, I'm SUCH a drama queen. I should stop.........Peace Out (if you made it this far, then i'm sorry for wasting your time, but thanks for caring enough to read this much)

Imaad Rashied

Wow, almost three months since I last updated. I think it's about time for another one, ey? heh heh.

Man, xanga has sure changed since I last got on. There're all these new fonts and colors that you can use for your weblog entries. heh heh, cool!

Anyway, what has been going on since my last entry? Well, senior year has started and it's not going as well as I'd hoped it would. First of all, I have almost NO classes with people that I would want to have classes with. Second of all, I barely get to see some of my closest friends. Third of all, I think I'm drifting apart from everyone. I barely have time to keep up and it seems that no one else does either. Last year, it seemed that I always had something going on, there was always something planned, there was always something to do. This year, I find myself more and more alone, but perhaps it's only because the year has just started. Well, it has been about two months since the year started, but maybe that's just too soon as well.

There's one thing that I regret a lot more than other things. I have not met up w/David in FOREVER. Not just met up with him, but I haven't spoken with him. It just seems like I never have time to do anything, but there always seemed to be time before for David. heh. Perhaps I sound gay, perhaps everyone thinks I'm weird, but I know that David has been an inspiration in my life. We went through some pretty interesting stuff last year and we got through it together. His insights on life and our looong conversations always got me thinking, heh, and it was always easier to follow things knowing that he was following right along with me. All in all, I need to get my ass up and call him!

Then there's Tien. My god, I love that girl more than she could know. I know some of you might start thinking in different terms, but it's not like that. I love her as I should love an older sister, even though she's younger than me. Basically, the same situation as with David, I don't see/talk to her enough. She has been there since freshman year. She was the second friend I had at this school. Heh, almost alienating myself is how I repay her. Sheesh, I need to get some priorities when it comes to friends. Again, all in all, I need to get my ass up and call her!

So yeah, that has been my senior year so far, in a nutshell. It's not what I want it to be, but I'm going to work to make it awesome! Just as soon as Ramadan is over....

I need to start keeping my friends as misers do their treasures, because, of all things granted us by wisdom, none is greater or better than friendship....

I'm out

Imaad Rashied